Laslas

A boy, a knife, a motive
Blood dripping from wrist
Waiting for eyes to shut

You and I

I'm not really a fan of Lady Gaga and anything else that's related to her but I really like this music video. Lady Gaga is weird in a million ways but the weirdness of this video is something that I can appreciate.

And that is SEX! Lol. Not sex per se but rather, the artistic view on sexual disorders. I have identified six (seven) sexual disorders in the video, namely: necrophilia, sadism-masochism, bestiality, lesbianism, narcissism, and mysophilia.

First on the list is necrophilia. Necrophilia is having feelings or sexual attraction to corpses. Lady Gaga as the corpse bride was really appealing since its the only part that was intimate rather than sexy. The wedding theme is implicating that love cannot be bounded by death, that love doesn't fade that easily. Maybe I'm over-thinking a bit but you can't really blame me.

Next is sado-masochism. Sadism is when you achieve sexual gratification through inflicting pain while masochism is the opposite. We can see that the supposed-to-be torture devices were intricately made. The act of being electrocuted was very funny. I don't really know if giving or receiving pain would be sexually satisfying. I should try this some time. :D

Mermaid Gaga is very sexual. The idea of bestiality in reality disgusts me but I have my fair share of ogling on tentacle/furry hentai though. I thought that sexual organs of fishes, or mermaids perhaps, are near the tip of their tails. But it would also be weird if the guy in the video was humping Gaga's tail fins.

Last on the list that was clearly shown on the video was lesbianism or homosexuality. Sure lesbo action is a glorious event to witness but having a transsexual Gaga was overkill. I mean it literally killed my hard on. The trannyGagaXfemGaga led me to believe that there is a subtle hint of narcissism.

Narcissism is when you fall in love with yourself. I have a bad case of the narcs and its side-effects are delusions of grandeur, overflowing confidence and air, and clinical depression (rare). The video subtly hints narcissism since Gaga is loving Gaga.

Last on the list is mysophilia. There's a part of the video where all the female dancers, including Lady Gaga, was having an orgy in the barn. Well they're not actually having an orgy but the dance was implicating it. When I watched that I was like thinking, "dirty barn sex orgy". Mysophilia is love of filth and Lady Gaga is filthy. o_O

The lyrics are sooo not in par with the MV. The lyrics was just expressing a state of longing and missing and taking chances. Boring. Thumbs up for the Haus of Gaga Publishing and the Haus of Gaga for making me appreciate what's gaga. ^_^

Business Ideas

I really want to have my own business. The one on the top of the list is the one I’m gonna pursue though. So here is a list that I made enumerating unique businesses that might survive in Iligan City.

1. sex toys shop
2. stripclub
3. candy/chocolate/sweet shop
4. psych ward
5. maid agency
6. septic tank cleaner
7. hotels promotion agency
8. art and photo gallery
9. private videoke rooms (w/ escorts)
10. coliseum
11. medical group/private practice
12. detective agency
13. anti-theft shop
14. tattoo shop
15. magic shop
16. dojo (capoeira)
17. greenhouse
18. lingerie shop
19. zoo
20. comic shop
21. costumes shop

/gg

Poseur

Perfection is hard to achieve. Not all the time we can cover up our flaws. There will be occasions where we end up being embarrassed by the people who think our imperfections are demeaning or demoralizing. Though ironic, we strive to be perfect in the eyes of those people who think lowly of us. In other words, we try to be flawless not for our own selves but for others.

Poseurs we may seem. For we are able to live life pretending that it’s not that bad. People are envious of how good liars we are. But we do it for the greater good!

In conclusion, we poseurs are selfless and kind. Too kind. We should be given an award. o_O

The Fall

Making my way
Into the fall
I thought I saw the light
The answer to my quest

Looking for the hope
I could never find in daybright
I seek it in shadows
Wishing for a pure soul

A strong heart need
Not be calm and peaceful
Never ending chaos
Will soon sweep out the love

Intellect is the sole need
Feelings are useless
No one’s bigger than yourself
Selfishness is a virtue

There’s no turning back
The fall is the end
The life of the numb
Is it really worth it?

Push

I don’t know what I’m doing. I have no plans of changing. I don’t care if somebody gets hurt. It’s their problem, not mine. I only need to care for myself and no one else. I admit I’m selfish and insensitive. I can’t stop being a dick to anyone that gets close to me. I guess I have no self respect. But that doesn’t stop me from doing what I think is best for myself.

Pain is a fact of life. Still, people can’t accept that. They cry and weep and get depressed and commit phailed suicides. I’ve been through a lot yet, I’m still alive. Screw those people who say they can’t live without someone. Screw those guys who think so lowly of themselves. I’ve had enough of them.

I’ve had enough of life. I’m sick of this mediocre life that I’m suppose to learn to love. But I’m not gonna kill myself. I just wanna rant. I can pretend to live life. Though deep inside I die… slowly…

Reality check: Love is all around me. I don’t want it. I just hope they give it to someone else. I am indifferent. I don’t want people crying when I die. I am who I am. If they can’t accept that, then it’s better to leave. I’ll keep running. That’s the only thing I know how to do.

Lab Rat

Life is like a lab
A workbench of failure
Errors to every test
Uncertainty to hypotheses

In times it feels confusing
Mind overshadowed by the heart
A desire for something ideal
Disregarding what’s real

Test subjects need not be nurtured
For a test can go awry
Attachment is not an option
Perfection is my mission

A scientist is labeled crazy
When the norms are bended
But the experiment must go on
Though methods are wrong

The scientist is the lab rat
Ignorant to learning
Irrelevant to life
Insensitive to love