I could have been a better man... Saying goodbye hurts, but I know this is the right thing to do. I cannot give you the things you ask from me. I'm too fed up with my own issues I tend to forget that there is someone who cares for me and love me for my imperfections. Yet, I decided to run away from all of this.

I want to start all over. I want to be a better person if ever I'd pursue you again. I want what's best for you. I want you to be happy. You can't be happy with me. I'm dragging you along with me in this dark, deep, infinite cave of mine. A hole you will never leave once you let yourself fully consumed.

I know I've hurt you and this is the best solution I can think of. The only way I could never hurt you again. The times we spent together are times worth to be cherished. I love you, but we have to part ways and get out of this petty mutual relationship that destroys the norms of a boyfriend-girlfriend relationship.

You can say I'm a coward or I'm not strong enough. Maybe I am. Hate me. Despise me. But please, don't hate me too long. You are my first love and there's nothing that can change that. Farewell...