Tuesday, March 03, 2009

Schizophrenia


Fury shadows my soul
Dreams shattered by others
My heart weep in symphony
My soul bound to eternity

This emptiness I feel
Draining my life slowly
Voices telling me to let go
Leave memories that brought sorrow

I cry with blood as tears
Let me be struck by lightning
For I am a cruel sinner
Contracted to damnation

Driven by urges to kill
Motivated by anger and rage
With no reason to live on
I now take my life away

Private Emotion

It burdens me to see you like that

As if you carry the weight of the world
The sadness in your eyes says everything
Your placid smile fools no one


Thursday, October 30, 2008

I HATE LOVE

I don't wanna love. It is costly, time-consuming, energy-wasting, and an emotional burden. It deprives you of sleep and it uses most of your day. It makes you weak and lose control. It diminishes half of your identity. It takes half of your legal property.

Love forces you to tidy up your uncleaned room. It makes you brush your teeth and take a bath everyday. It makes you go to church and confess to the priest all your sins. It makes your room pink-themed. It forces you to throw away your action-figure collection. It makes you spend most of your money for new clothes and artificial man-scents. It forces you to study and get high grades. It makes your telephone and cellphone bills go high. It stuffs your always-empty refrigerator. It makes you do your laundry every week and lets you do it twice if it's not clean enough. It forces you to get a new hairstyle which you never heard of. It makes you wake up one minute before your alarm clock sets off. It makes you shave everyday. It makes you give up your favorite hobbies, such as gaming and binge-eating! It makes you fat though you are doing strenuous activities.

Everything you do is always not enough when it comes to love.