I HATE LOVE

I don't wanna love. It is costly, time-consuming, energy-wasting, and an emotional burden. It deprives you of sleep and it uses most of your day. It makes you weak and lose control. It diminishes half of your identity. It takes half of your legal property.

Love forces you to tidy up your uncleaned room. It makes you brush your teeth and take a bath everyday. It makes you go to church and confess to the priest all your sins. It makes your room pink-themed. It forces you to throw away your action-figure collection. It makes you spend most of your money for new clothes and artificial man-scents. It forces you to study and get high grades. It makes your telephone and cellphone bills go high. It stuffs your always-empty refrigerator. It makes you do your laundry every week and lets you do it twice if it's not clean enough. It forces you to get a new hairstyle which you never heard of. It makes you wake up one minute before your alarm clock sets off. It makes you shave everyday. It makes you give up your favorite hobbies, such as gaming and binge-eating! It makes you fat though you are doing strenuous activities.

Everything you do is always not enough when it comes to love.

“Searching for the Right One”

Is it ok to believe in soulmate and reincarnation?!? To believe in these notions would open your mind to another notion which I call “waiting”. A very simple word but difficult to apply to one’s life. What if the right person would never come? What if your whole lifetime is a wrong time for both of you to have a relationship? What if he/she is bound to die before you could actually meet?

Most of the people in this world don’t want to wait just to enjoy the material possessions of this world. These people never knew that there’s something more to life. I don’t know what it really is that I’m searching but I will wait a lifetime. Sounds kinda long but I don’t know why these worldly pleasures don’t satisfy me anymore.

How would you know if he/she is your soulmate? A difficult question you might say since you’re not a Buddhist. It’s easy actually. Just do nothing until there comes a time that when you look at a particular person and then you feel a ticklish sensation from the deepest part of your soul. That’s when you say that he’s/she’s the one. But wait there’s more! This tiny sensation will suddenly burst to your whole body as that person approaches you. But I’m not saying that this feeling is one-sided. To find your soulmate means two people finding their soulmates. The exact feeling you’re experiencing will also be felt by your partner.

What I’m saying sounds senseless right now. You might think that waiting for the right one will keep you from knowing the right one. I’m just expressing a simple person’s point of view without knowing what impressions people would make. If ever you find that right person (formally or accidentally) and wouldn’t know what to say to him/her, well that’s another story…^_^

when a girl says “I like you”

To tell someone about one’s feeling is something you need to have a lot of courage. But for somebody to tell you ’bout what they feel is confusing…

Especially when you're a guy and not that gudlooking… That’s really confusing since you would have doubts if you will believe it or not. Xur I have gud qualities as a person but not as a love interest!!! For an inferior and passive person like me, to be love by someone who’s quite a beauty is really impossible… Well I refuse to believe about love. Thinking ’bout love’s complexity makes my head ache.

Love… is a deep feeling of intimacy and craziness since it makes the brain malfunction, the cheeks turn red, the feet swept away, heart beat faster, the lips juicy and wet, mind floating in air, and really huge hard on…

But let’s get back to what this post talks about… Xur I got shocked and don’t know what to say but I never realized that she has a thing for me… It’s kinda lame talking bout this stuff and shit but it really clears my mind if I spill it on a permanent basis…

Now I know how to appreciate simple things in this world so I try to be someone who’s friendly and nice, though I’m not. It’s what you call pakikisama and it’s important in surviving this world. Call it plastic but I like being appreciated by people… Other’s call it demure but I like it.

As for others who’s insecure on me, sorry if even I don’t put much effort in making myself alluring, people still love me!!!^_^